I had tweeted some of my thoughts from this whole experience today. Before I had thought that this blog is not about my feelings it's about Russ. Today I realize that my feelings and thoughts about Russ' life, death and feelings since are very relavent to Russ. I have pretty strong feelings about what Taylor Armstrong and Bravo have done to my friend's name. Russ and I were close before we could drive. We were good friends our whole life. Russ told me things not many people knew about Taylor. I know why certain things Taylor says are lies. For instance he first attacked her because she had not given his boys vegetables with their pizza. In fact both the boy's mothers and the rest of Russ' family know that is a lie because of one fact. One of the boys only eats cheese pizza. Russ told me stories such as the one Taylor strangled him as they were driving down the road with two kids in the car. I first saw Taylor's story about the attack involving pizza and vegetables on the set of Dr. Phil. I had heard all her accusations but was not watching any of the press because I was so upset by not just his death but his character assasination. They can say what they want but I recently watched a clip where someone from Bravo was on a show saying Russ was a monster because he had a domestic violence arrest at an earlier date and that means Taylor is telling the truth. I would venture more than half the males in America have an arrest and it might not always tell the whole story. If you have not seen the interview with Russ' first wife Barbara on Inside Edition I encourage you to watch it. http://stoopidhousewives.com/2011/10/26/real-housewives-of-beverly-hills-russell-armstrong-russells-son-aiden-appears-on-inside-edition/ She has told me over and over there is no way Russ did that to Taylor. As most readers know I don't watch Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. I hardly saw any of the ones that were on when Russ was alive much less the tasteless episodes they went ahead and ran after his death. It's not like it was Bravo's tribute to Russell Armstrong much like "The Crow" was for Brandon Lee. To use some of Russ' final words to me, "Everybody is piling on". Russ had no idea Bravo would continue to pile on along with Taylor after his death. He would get the opposite of a tribute. He would have his legacy torn to shreads because he lost his rights when he died. No the less I am angray with Taylor and Bravo. I found out about Russ' death at work. I went straiht home and stood in one place for hours. I called another one of Russ' closest friends and had a break down. I called Russ' sister to give her support and broke down. Keep in mind I have worked in a gym most of my adult life. I'm about as tough of a person as your going to meet. I obviously have a sensitive side but I don't have emotional melt downs. 99% of the time I am the one calm person when everyone else is freaking out. Then to hear Taylor and Bravo take advantage of the fact Russ was dead and couldn't speak for himself. Bravo wants the public to think Russ was a monstor sickens me. Now I hear from regular watchers of Real Housewives of Beverly Hills that the other housewives originally didn't believe her but as I recall Taylor said something like it was an "open secret" among the cast. Which is it? They didn't believe her or it was an open secret. I don't want to go into all my questions in this blog but get to my point. I had back surgery two summers ago. I just had my shoulder replaced last month. I am looking at a back fusion as soon as my shoulder heels and both my knees need replaced. A few years ago I had a business partnership end on a bad note that has caused ongoing stress. I am trying to get a new business going since training people in my gym is probably not a very good plan for my future. I work at least twelve hours a day with bilatteral siatica by the end of each day. I'm not a reality star or anyone famous. I am a small business owner who has worked in gyms most of his life. I am just a regular guy. The guy who I speant more free time with and had a closer friendship with than anyone else in my life happened to be someone who ended up with a little fame in life and more in death. Russ had something Taylor never had or any of the executives at Bravo I would venture to guess. Russ has a friend who he still means enough to that he will take time out of his life that is filled with an overwelming amount of stress and physical pain to try to change the perception of people a hand full at a time, while trying to give readers a glimpse of his true personality. Could the Russ Bravo and Taylor have shown to the public have ever had that kind of friendship? Of course not.
One quick story. I was a lot more judgemental of people when I was young as most people are. When we were about 15 I referred to someone as being a loser for whatever reason. Russ stopped me and said they were not losers and in words long forgotten explained to me that we didn't know their situation. Wise words coming from a 15 year old who would be portrayed as "heartless" on Reality tv.